April 3, 2026
No way. There is no way. I logged on to Interference today and I saw that U2 released ANOTHER surprise EP last night! This is the second one in under two months! It's called Easter Flower and I've heard on Interference that it sounds pretty good. Oh wait. You probably don't know what Interference is. U2 Interference is an online forum site that has been active at least as long as U2's second resurgence in 2000 with Beautiful Day. Even though it's not the most happening place, there's about 12-15 people that still hop on regularly. I joined back in February and it's become one of my favorite sites along with Neocities :) I decided that even though I'm not super familiar with their back catalogue I will still listen to it. I didn't listen to Days of Ash back when it dropped in February but I will give this one a shot. I'm pretty excited. Anyways more of the same today except... it's Friday! No work tomorrow! I'm pretty happy about that. Here's a weird thought I've been thinking. If the people around me will be in Heaven, will I want to be there? Heaven is supposed to be a perfect place, so if so, I'll probably be able to zip to the other side of the cosmos to avoid them or something. Just something I randomly thought of in PE yesterday.
April 2, 2026
I used to not understand when people would say "I wouldn't do high school again if somebody gave me 1 million dollars" and similar remarks. Now that I'm in it, I understand very well. I used to not get it, back when I was a middle schooler, but it makes pretty good sense now. It’s pretty bad at times. Not always but sometimes. Pretty much the same reasons I gave back on Monday but I would like to add another thing. There's no time to be alone or just to zone out in quiet. You may get finished with your work early but it's still loud. I'm not kidding when I say that I once sat in the toilet stall during my lunch period instead of eating just because I wanted to be able to relax. I would definitely do it again. School used to be more enjoyable than not, back when I was in middle school. It's not just nostalgia (though it helps) because I have journals and memories where I think about how I actually liked school. I miss it. Who knows, maybe when I've got a job I'll miss high school? I don't know. Anyways I haven't done much really besides work on George Washington. I'm not taking it very seriously because it is very silly in nature.
April 1, 2026
I used to get bummed out a lot of the time when a new month came around. It hasn't really happened since the end of last year, because it was the end of the year and all. But it hasn't happened any since 2026 started. Not to any real extent anyways. In hindsight April is almost like a warm up month to the yearly climax of my life that is May. I try things and behaviors in smaller amounts than I will inevitably do in the month of May. It's easy to notice patterns in your life even if they aren't really there. As much as you want there to be. Anyways the main deal in my interests right now (besides U2!) is my project dubbed George Washington. It is a slideshow game that I'm probably going to turn into a Dungeons and Dragons campaign. I drew the map and it's this ugly neon green and blue thing with captions in Comic Sans, all drawn on Google Slides. Hideously early 2000s. I'm having a lot of fun with it, and I might put it on this site somehow when it's finished.
March 31, 2026
Health is something that is very important to me. I think that it is much easier to be happy and healthy, and besides that, there are the objective benefits of being healthy. Despite my lack of strength exercise, I think that I have good stamina and cardio, and enjoy running. I was able to run today, and I tried running faster with success. I'm not a fitness maestro or anything. I usually just slowly jog for half an hour and call it good. That's also not to say that exercise is the only facet of health. I'm not going to go into food and diet because I could write a whole piece on that, but one thing I think is pretty important is your mind. Not necessarily what most people think of when they hear "mental health", what I am talking about is meditation. I used to lay in the grass with my eyes closed and just breathe slowly for 10 or 15 minutes and I felt very relaxed and refreshed afterwards. Besides it's one of Paul McCartney's tips of graceful aging! Something I've been meaning to say was that I haven't written anything on this page in awhile besides these logs. When I bought Achtung Baby I also bought The Beatles 1967-1970 compilation, and I would like to write a page about what I thought of it. I need to listen to it more, but you can expect that in the next couple of weeks. Lastly, please, everybody; think before you speak. Or talk over the phone, or text, or sending messages on your favorite 2000s forum board. More specifically, also do not jump to agree to things that you don't fully understand. I learned the hard way today. I'm not going into detail.
March 30, 2026
Back to school today, for the first time in 9 days. As I anticipated, it wasn't as bad as I anticipated (?). Sure there were some idiots but for the most part it was fine. I think that a lot of the reason I was especially uninterested was because I felt ill on the next to last day of school, and that makes everything seem worse. Also it was right before spring break so the students were especially rowdy and all. Rowdiness is pretty much the worst part. The backhanded crap I can handle. Even the stupid meme jokes I can deal with. It's just that when everything is so loud and obtrusive is when things get irritating. Regardless the day wasn't all that bad. I even was glad to see my friends for a split second. Not much is going on at home so far. I usually go for a run after school but I was having stomach pains so I just walked for awhile. One announcement: on weekdays these updates will fall about an hour later than usual to account for driving and stuff.
March 29, 2026
Today is the last day of Spring Break. I mean technically Friday was because this is just the weekend but nobody has any reason to be that particular. I often feel like I didn't do enough or make the most of my breaks from school, but I don't really feel that this time. What can I really do? I'm practically broke and still relying on my parents to take me places. Nonetheless I still feel like I accomplished something. I spent time with my family, listened to Achtung Baby which is the best new album I've heard in awhile, revisited old favorites, started reading The Grapes of Wrath (seems good so far if a bit wordy), and I made this log. I'm pretty proud of what I did. Could it have been better? Was it perfect? Always and never. But it was far from a bad break. If you've followed me this far I really appreciate you spending some time with me :) I honestly didn't really do much today besides go to church. I'm not the most spiritual but I don't have a choice to go or not. It's not awful, in fact it's usually good, but it's not like it's my decision. While I feel okay about the break, I especially don't want to go back to school. I don't want to put up with all of those people. I don't really mind the work but I mind the people. I'm probably thinking it will be worse than the reality is but that doesn't change the fact that I don't want to go back. I know summer break is coming up, but I don't want that either, because that would mean I didn't do anything with this school year besides get through it. It's happening whether I like it or not, but I'll be back here tomorrow. See you then...
March 28, 2026
Until I find a more permanent (and working) solution to avoiding my phone whilst updating this page daily, we're going to stay on the phone. I'm thinking I'm also going to allow myself to use at as normal. Like a last hurrah before it's over. I feel like when you have a phone you don't have time to just sit and think. Like if you're bored or in the car or whatever you have your phone to occupy you instead of zoning out and thinking about last summer or girls or whatever. It's really sad because that used to be my go to thing but now it doesn't happen a lot. I'm always doing something or occupied by something and there's just not the time. I miss it even if my mood was often worse afterwards. Anyways today I went out to get my haircut but it turned into a much longer ordeal of errand running and stuff. I stumbled into a local video game store and walked out with Assassin's Creed Revelations for the Xbox 360 because why the hell not? I played Syndicate a couple of years ago on my PC and thought it was fun and we have an Xbox at the house and it was 4 dollars so whatever. You know what makes me sad? The widespread and convenient nature of fast food. It’s everywhere and especially when you are busy it is so much easier than going home late and cooking. But it's really not in any way good for you, but everybody eats it, and it makes me sad. I tend to do a decent job of avoiding and I'll eat at home, and the idea of even eating it makes me feel unhappy, but I'm far from perfect on it. The house was pretty quiet today because less people were here. I like it because it is much more calm. Sometimes you need an atmosphere like that.
March 27, 2026
So once again I wasn't going to turn on my phone today, and things were looking quite well, until I decided to update this log. Usually I update it via the smartphone so that I don't go under scrutiny from my family members for having the much less subtle laptop out. Since I'm trying to avoid the phone, however, this seemed impossible, until I remembered the school laptop that I have. I had to log onto my phone so that I could fetch my Neocities password to edit it, but this should be the last day. One more live music via YouTube binge and then we are DONE! Wish me luck! Oh no, my file won't save correctly on this? Bloody frankin hell. It's almost like the internet people didn't intend for you to practice responsible and minimalistic usage of technology while trying to perform daily updates on your personal webpage. It’s strange isn't it? Anyways I revisited one of my very favorite albums, Wish by The Cure. Cure albums aren't just albums. They are worlds and stories to get lost in, and sometimes I don't want to get found. Anyways Wish is a pretty perfect album, in fact it may be my very favorite album. Disintegration is really the only other one that could stand a chance, but whichever one I listened to last tends to be my favorite. Wish is the album that saved my life, and now I'm in a different place, for better or worse. I also went hiking with my family in a really pretty local area. Some people just don't understand "be quiet and take everything in" and it messes the experience up for people like me who live for it.
March 26, 2026
I meant to not turn my phone on at all today but here we are. I swear they are addictive. Am I addicted to my phone? Probably not "addicted" but I wanted to listen to U2 live so again, here we are. I think that smartphones and being raised on the Internet did a number on many of my generation. I know that so many people say that but I genuinely think it's true. I don't like memes, I don't like short form videos, and I don't like online multiplayer video games. I like LIVING!!! Which is ironic considering I'm sitting here on my phone typing this for a personal website. Yeah I get really defensive about this and I'm kind of sorry. Sort of. Anyways I decided to give New Order's debut Movement a spin in my stereo today. It’s an album I am very much influenced by, and doesn't get the respect it deserves both as a good album and a very dark one. I also wrote something on my electric guitar that I thought was alright. I'm thinking about recording for some kind of music project over summer break. Here's your early warning, duck for cover before June! I would like to release it (whatever "it" becomes) via Internet but we'll just have to see.
March 25, 2026
Spring Break goes by way faster than I remembered. My memory of last year's was very slow but this is so fast. Life goes scary fast sometimes. Anyways I got some Sims mods downloaded, my saves and mods were also deleted when I finally added my own profile to my laptop. I had less than I did before. I tried playing Sims today in Spring Break tradition but it wasn't super fun. Grinded more DS2 instead, overall more fun than not. It seems to me that from these entries it comes across that all I do is play video games but that's not true. For whatever reason I find it more interesting than saying "well I played Enjoy the Silence on my guitar for the 127th day in a row". So there's that. The Smashing Pumpkins are kind of like The Cure but heavier, at least the stuff from Mellon Collie on is. I vastly prefer The Cure but I do like the Pumpkins. I probably preferred them when it was the band instead of Billy plus the other guys but whatever. My dad's a funny guy. Not like the average middleaged man at all, and in a good way too. I was fortunate to spend some time with him today. I owe a lot to my dad. 90% of things I like came from him, and I probably wouldn't have made this site were it not for my beyond surface level interests. I'd probably be a *whispers conspiratorially* computer nerd. So thanks Dad. You probably won't see this but thanks.
March 24, 2026
Why is it my instinct to call someone a pervert whenever I'm mad at them? Like not in an actual angry way, it's usually just when my "friends" are giving me a hard time or something. It's this weird thing I've picked up over the past few months. Anyways today was supposed to be Walking Dead Day, but I played Dark Souls II instead. Walking Dead Day is the 24th of every month where I play 1 episode of the Telltale Walking Dead video game if I feel like it. There's more to it than that but I just didn't feel like it today. It shouldn't take me too long to get my save progress in DS2 back to where it was. It's fun and also gives me a chance to do things better than last time. Got invaded by some wannabe parry god today who put fire on his sword. I was going to win but he got one parry in on me. Tried playing One by U2 on my guitar today because I love Achtung Baby. It's a pretty easy song. Oh we also went swimming at an indoor pool. If you think too hard about public pools you ruin the fun. That's how a lot of things are I guess. Ignorance is really bliss.
March 23, 2026
I tried some new things today. Last weekend when I went to the record store I purchased U2's album Achtung Baby, but I saved it until Spring Break, which is now. I finally listened to it today, and it was pretty great. I loved One, Ultraviolet, Who's Gonna Ride your Wild Horses... the whole thing really was good. I also bought this little game for my laptop called Kudos 2. It's like The Sims and Bitlife kind of. My guy's name is Markle Morris. He is very muscular and thin but not intelligent. It's a fun game for $2. I wish I liked strength workouts as much as I do cardio. I love going running for an hour but I have a hard time lifting weights or even hitting a speedbag for more than 5 minutes. It's just not fun to me. I'm a bit on the scrawny side if you didn't guess. It could be worse; at least I care about my health. I have a leg up on at least one third of my generation then.
March 22, 2026
If I want to be good at guitar, I need to practice. I can hardly play Bizarre Love Triangle, which is a very easy song if you don't play. Yes I can play harder songs just because I have more time with them, but I'm still not quite where I want to be. U2 Interference is the coolest place on the whole Internet. If you disagree you just don't know. My amp has two distortion settings; clean and lead. Clean tone is more like overdrive and lead is this ugly loud metal distortion. Two extremes. So I'm using "clean" for my distortion. What a world.
March 21, 2026
First day of Spring Break and it's already hot. It's not unbearable but whatever. I just sat around and watched concert films of all things. That's not to say I usually don't like concert films, but I don't usually get around to watching TV in general, including concert DVDs. You know who's a good band? The Pixies. I had to reset my laptop with the disappeared D drive (which I have come to the conclusion is totally fried), but I forgot to copy my Dark Souls II save file. Luckily I had a spare... from July 2023. Yeah, so I lost 3 years of progress, and now I'm right back to the beginning of Shulva. I know it could have been a lot worse, but it's still sad. Damn it, Valve, where's cloud save when you need it?